Deprived

This was penned down for a contest titled "Forced Loss of innocence", which wanted potrayal of the feelings of a abused victim (obviously a gal) ..

Vivid memories of that dreadful night,
when fate decided to thrust on me,
a new horror and dreadful knowing,
stripping me of my sweet innocence,
pulled out of my blissful world,
to be painted with dark and pain,
the act being less painful,
the memories inflicting more,
raging anger troubles me,
boiling, ready to pour out,
to tell the world of my pain,
revenge was what i had in mind,
sadly,strength was not mine,
desperate to claw my way back,
fighting with memories,
losing faith and trust,
difficult did the path become,
wishing the coward to be hanged,
for he an murderer, but not of the body.